Smile Like You Always Do.

Hi there.

Am back to update this Rakuen over here.
Hmm, what can I say? Well, it's raining very heavily right now and probably I'll "open" my fast first before going to school to practice for Suntec Finals.

How I wish there was someone like Ohno-chan as my friend.
Daa~

Hear Your Footsteps

What was it that I was looking for?

I realise that, I have to keep myself occupied.
With the things that I really want to do.
With what I really want to achieve.
The things that is necessary for me to obtain happiness.
To stay cheerful.
Surrounded with positivity.
All around me, I have to ensure that the people too... are adorable, passionate, happy-go-lucky.

What is it that I want?

I want to be someone independent, someone with a goal in mind...
I want a career, that will help me provide for my family.
It is soon my turn. My turn to take care of my parents.
Like how they did to me.
Like how they had covet me.
Like how they sheltered me.
Like how they spent for me.
But I know they're not asking for much, but being one of the children of such a humble couple...
That is all that I can do to repay.
It is known that a lifetime can't do much for all the things they had done.
But it's the least I can come up with.
To make sure they have the better of the best.
Where time permits.

Arjuna.

A Wish.

A simple life.

Waking up to the rising sun, dew drops shining down from leaves, breathing the fresh natural scent, the morning hustle of neighbourhood residents.
Family breakfast, parents to work, us to school.
Accompanied with relaxing music during the bus ride to school's campus, responding strangers's smiles in acknowledgement.
Punctuality, efficient, alert, attentive, accountable.
Lunch with classmates, jokes in the air, laughter within the creation of a bond, understand each other better.
Promises made for tomorrow.
Bus ride back home. Greeting the welcoming greeneries throughout the walking journey, eventually reaching home safe and sound.
Parents return, dinner at 8PM, get-together-session, school revision and assignments.
Sleeps to recharge for the next day.
A day to look forward to.

It sure sounds nice.

Oh Snap.

Hello there.
I'm back to update this paradise here. =)

I feel like the need to eat a bowl of maggie before I sleep. Maybe I'll do just that... but later.

Now I'm going to update a little about what has been happening recently so that in the future, whenever I'm bored, I'll be able to entertain myself by reading my past ramblings and laugh about it. Ain't that gona be fun? =)

Anyways, this is related to my previous post.
I've safely concluded that HE is nothing but an eye candy.
Well look at it this way.

He is fun to be around with.
Funny.
Has interesting opinions.
Is a pretty boy.

Note the last factor, "IS A PRETTY BOY".
And he is also just a partial figment of my fantasy.
Which is heh, in reality, is damn impossible for me to own.

Firstly, for my part... I have issues with commitment.
Number two, I haven't love myself enough to love anybody else yet.
On a third note, my emotional space has been taken up with the wasted feeling of feeling upset and lonely... felt that it could have been made more useful being occupied by elements like feeling the joy of dance and the will to work real hard on school work whereever it can be applied to.

So to conclude Ladies and Gentlemen, I shall put this what I call THE "love affair" aside and set the focus more on my interest on Dance as well as building the foundation to my future career being in the Hospitality and Tourism line. Yeah.

Gooooooooooooooooo Juna!

1/3 of my Actual Thoughts Out Loud.

There's many billion times I tried to forget him, but I can't.
I've convinced myself a trillion times that he's just an infatuation, but it just fails mid way coz I can't stop but to keep on this strange crushy feeling I have for him.
Pretty vexed about it, coz everytime I think of how it would never work for us... I'm troubled.

Well, it isn't the first time that my feelings weren't answered for.
My pace has always been this way.
I've always given up before it even begun.
Worst still, I'm always the one who gets the rejection.
Somewhat or rather, I've grown to become used to it.

Even the guy who plays my significant other in the future, seems pretty vague.
I just don't know anymore. I feel like I shouldn't involve myself anymore in anything that has to do with affairs of the heart.

This feels so troublesome.
This feels so weird.
This feels so time-consuming.
This changed me.

Why do others have it so easily, and yet... it's so hard on my road?

Yes. It's probably me thinking too much about it, but you see... I just can't help but to think it that way.
Oh probably, I should learn to love myself first, before I shower any to other people.

Therefore, I shall make it official. There shan't be anybody else who worries me but myself, my family and my good friends.

And yeah, I'm fat and ugly... I'm saddened by that too.

At that Moment.

My most favourite person has just turned 27 today. I hope he is coping well in his career and will continue doing his best effortlessly. ^_^

Reveal the Secret.

Yes. You are my password.